Just wanted to advertise, once again, to my store: WWW.DIAPERGIFTSONLINE.COM

Offering diaper cakes & wreaths, washcloth candies, baby shower ebook, and more...

okay everyone, i've been neglecting all of you because i've been busy with my husby's paint biz and this new project of mine... www.DiaperGiftsOnline.com

It's not done, it's not perfect, i have to use ebay, but who cares, i've sold some booties already that way...

busy, busy, busy... !

all right... FINALLY. it's been CRAZY these past two weeks. i was in bed for like a day and a half because i got a fkn stomach virus. and to make matters worst, i had gotten over my previous sickness (nbr. 2 below). my baby also got a stomach virus the same day i did... poor lil thing, he's still having the after-effects of it.

well, i can't lie and say that i haven't been online. i've just been busy... i created a 'Diaper Bootie' out of disposable diapers and it's been a big hit. Needless to say, i sold one and i have others watching my auction listings for it on ebay... who knew right?

let me back-track now and update you on what's happened so far in my life:

1. death is always closer than we think - someone who was a family friend passed away. he was almost like a second father of a sort to me... since i knew him that long... we went to the funeral and he looked so at peace. he's the 3rd person 'close' to me to pass away, the 2nd person i've ever seen after they've passed away. the first two people were my grandparents on my mom's side. we were much closer. i've come to realize that i don't cry much in situations like this. it's almost cruel the way i go on like if nothing were different. i think it's because i can see the bigger picture. i know they are all with God and are living better than they ever did here in the flesh... i still find it wierd that i hardly cry for things like this though... sometimes that scares me because i think i'm 'evil' in that respect... no mourning for the lost...

2. still sick - ugh! - i definitely DON'T want to talk about this... i was sick TOO long and it was horrible

3. wreath biz is still in start-up phase - well, technically it still is. everyone loves my cloth wreaths but they don't want to pay for them? wierdos.... i get the same amount of money on the diaper booties because they're in auction at ebay so i really don't care too much. i'm still looking into the e-commerce website and putting up some ads.... some biz cards wouldn't hurt either...

4. my husby's brother's unemployment check - & why he's always broke - oh snap, i had forgotten all about this. THIS IS JUICY! put simply, he gets $400 unemployment - weekly - and doesn't have money for gas to take his son to school and pick him up 5 days in a row... he 'smokes' it if you know what i mean. the other day we picked up their son from school. then, the next day they call for the same "favor". we said no and the kid had to wait at the school until about 5pm to get picked up (he gets out at 3pm). oh, and get this.. he wasn't picked up by his parents.. he was picked up by a cousin of their family. the poor kid was taken to their house and then had to wait until 9-10pm for his parents to go get him... that's funny... i thought they didn't have gas money? hmmmmm.... either way my car's radiator isn't workin'... eh, but why put up excuses, i love my nephew but i wasn't about to go pick him up and make my husby's bro's life easier. i have a kid to take care of. oh, and to make matters even better, my bro-in-law's wife keeps calling MY husband to do favors for them! isn't it my brother-in-laws place to ask his brother, my husband, for favors? not that i'd let him do them, but if i remember correctly from the time i called the cops on them at their own house, my brother in law told me that: "i spoke with my brother and the agreement was between him & me only"... let me just point out that i was face-to-face with him and was bitchin' him out shortly thereafter for that... !@#$% ...it's between him & my husband when it's convenient. that fkn bitch was the one that greeted us at the door that day! anyways, back to the point, that bitch better stop callin' my man... as i recall she married George, not Victor... this last time she called was because she was on the way to pickup her son and got a flat tire. it serves her right for all the bad things she's done. did you know that when my husband and i were seperated for three months she was almost fkn best friends with this psycho girl my husband was seeing? that's a whole other story...i could write a book on just that alone...

5. my mother-in-law & how much i love having her live w/ us - ok, it's selfish, it's rude, i shouldn't even admit to this out loud, but who gives a fuck? i love having her around because she will take care of the baby at any moment of the day. it's like having a secure back-up 24/7... *sheds a tear*... if you have children i know you see where i'm going with this... i always knew i was spoiled but this just takes it over the top...

6. i was invited to go out friday - from 'mi gerla'... yes.. and alas, i couldn't go - again. i could lie and say it was because of the person that passed away... but no, the hidden truth is that my husband is jealous and gets his panties all in a bunch if i go anywhere he can't go. sucks for him!

i guess that's pretty much it up to now.. will write more later...

ok, so now when i get home i can update you without having to "hide" from my husband on the desktop. i can go to the living room or anywhere else in the house... hee hee hee..

i'm actually on the road right now, my husband is doing a paint estimate while i've snuck on here to let you know i'm using someone's unsecured wireless network.... *sighs*... don't you love free internet?... yea, me too...

ok, so i'm supposed to be getting my laptop on thursday - then i can really tell you what's been goin' on. life has been hectic these past few days and i have no time for myself to "indulge"... let me make a quick list, mainly so i won't forget, so that i can update you later:

1. death is always closer than we think

2. still sick - ugh!

3. wreath biz is still in start-up phase

4. my husby's brother's unemployment check - & why he's always broke

5. my mother-in-law & how much i love having her live w/ us

6. i was invited to go out friday - from 'mi gerla'...

i'm sure a lot more will happen btwn now & thursday but at least this way you have an idea of why i've been "missing", and i can also remember to write about all that shit later...

well, here i am again... man, i'm itchin' to have my laptop already... right now i'm in the bedroom and i hate it cuz i can't do what i wanna' do. it's so sad (now that i think about it), that this is what i have to hide from my husband. you'd think he'd be like other normal people... who hide chatting online, cheating, etc... not me, i'm special... i had to marry the only guy on earth that is jealous of me blogging and having (God-forbid) male friends. I know, the concept is hard to grasp and I'm considered a whore of the worst kind for even typing it...

So anyways, moving on... my sickness is slowly progressing. I was so dizzy from these meds I took at 830am that I was still feeling the after-effects at like 8pm... mind you, I only took 1 dose this morning and maybe 1 or 2 yesterday. Did I mention I hate pills? Well, I do. I hate all medications.... yuck.... then again, I love antibiotics... we should all be so lucky to take a lil pill and have our ailments gone in seconds... *sigh* oh to have antibiotics for minor colds, fevers, & sinuses... I'd be happy. *wait, do they have antibiotics for minor stuff?*

Speakin' of sickness... my husband takes a mixture of pills (timed correctly, but alternates them throughout the day so there's no consistency) to 'feel better' with no food / liquid in his system. Needless to say, he always ends up worst. I keep telling him to take only one med. without so much alternation but does he listen? No... oh well, sleep all day, what do I care? That's usually what I do anyways.

I'm still in process of starting the diaper wreath biz, only now I've started looking into alternate things like soap making, gift basket designs (since I made like 7-8 for my mom in a couple of hours earlier today), and plush toy patterns. I'll get it up & running eventually, but the e-commerce sites are so expensive. I'd hate to use eBay but I may end up there anyways. Let me know if you have e-commerce sites opinions/suggestions, etc.

Soooo... gotta go 4 now...

okay, so... to elaborate like i said i would. well, let's break this down point by point:

1. ghetto party - ok, it was ghetto (& sad) because the only decoration was a cheap dollar store "happy birthday" sign. it was tacked to a brick wall located on the backyard area of the duplex.... the cake table was an old worn out computer desk that was left in the master bedroom of the place. there were no games, some ghetto ass reggaeton (aka. spanish rap), and no ceremonious stuff. i'd feel bad for my 7 year old nephew but he's so used to not having any celebration that he was the happiest kid on earth that day... afterall, he got a cake! God bless him... if they only stayed that young & innocent...
2. annoying sister-in-law - okay, this subject can spawn out into its own blog... i'll try to type the condensed edited revised version....*takes a deep gasping breathe in*.... this woman is not my husby's sister but is instead my husby's brother's wife. she is a pig who eats, sleeps, shits, & watches tv. she wears no makeup, the same grubby tshirt/jeans are what she wears to lounge around like a vegetable, as well as to go out. her work attire consisted of a black shirt, some black pants, and that was it. to further emphasize her background, you would get to her house and have to step over dirty children, cocroaches, boxes, broken dirty furniture, and toys just to get to the couch, which was about 8 feet from the front door. The rest of the house was an air-conditioned storage unit for DJ equiptment and furniture. It's so bad that I would fight for my life on my way to the bathroom, only to find a gaping hole in the wall, dirt on the floor (i'm talkin' about real sand here people, lots of it), more cocroaches, and a mountain of dirty clothes that spanned about 6 feet wide and 3 feet up. the tub had no shower curtain, of course. let me move on since i could write a book just on describing their house.... so anyway, on to the point. this "woman" is an old B*tch that talks to you in a diminishing way. You literally feel like you're being scolded every time she speaks. So anyways, her lazy ass won't clean, cook, bathe the children, or even have the decency to offer some water when we'd get to her house. The annoying part about the party was that since my husby's half-brother is staying at that house too, my sis-in-law wanted to show off so that he would tell everyone in puerto rico that she was actually more decent than described. She kept goin' around asking if we were ok, if we had enough to eat, if we tried this... if we needed anything else... then she starts talkin' about my baby... 'he's so big', 'wait until he reaches seven,  it gets harder then'.... blah blah blah blah blah.... i was trying so hard to ignore her and she was going out of her way to talk to me! what's up w/ that shit? she knows i was ignoring her. the best part of the night in reference to her was when my husby's sister's friend came over and she kept calling the b*tch's husby "papi".... ha ha ha....
3. wild screamin' kids - as if one isn't enough... there were six of them running around like crazy people in straight jackets (my baby not included because he's still too little). yea, i kno what you're thinking... and NO, this is not your "normal" party behaviour. I'm talkin about spoiled kids who ignore everything you're saying, even their own mother, and pretty much do whatever it is that they want with no reprecussions whatsoever. it's like a free-4-all with no rules.... you know what happens w/ no rules: complete & utter kaos / anarchy. One almost electrocuted himself because he kept sticking his finger in the wall socket, one was crying for no apparent reason, one was walking around with cake in his hand and all over his mouth, hands, walls, etc, another one was trying to "use" my $400 Sony digital camera - right out of my hands, and the list continues... let me point out that the birthday boy was the only one at the party in dirty clothes!
4. good food - pork, rice w/ beans & pork chunks, grilled hot dogs, potatoes, cake, ice cream... yummy!

that's it for now... i'm tired since i've been so busy and my throat is killing me. it feels so sore..

let's take a look @ this week's events:

• MONDAY: went to largest flea market i've ever been to. we traveled almost an hour an 1/2 to get there.... mind you, people there buy these $15-19 karts sold on premises because the place is so big that they can't walk around with all the items in their hands for that long. They only open on monday as a flea market, but on a side note, tuesdays are "cattle-selling" day.... lmao....
• TUESDAY: went wreath-material shopping. I bought a ton of stuff, i'm going to start making them tommorrow since i want to get things going much faster. We also had to wait in the car for about 3 hours average since we had to go out of our way to take my husband to do some painting quotes. i could of killed him since i had told him on sunday not to make plans for either monday or tuesday when my mom was off so that we could all go out @ a leisurely pace. my cousin was supposed to go but she stayed asleep until 2pm.
• WEDNESDAY: i have a wic appointment. they were supposed to re-evaluate if i qualify in january, but they had scheduled my appointment for a day and then the nutritionist i had to see for the re-evaluation wasn't there so i was rescheduled for today. BULLSHIT! what the fuk do you mean you gave me a january appointment and then the lady's not here?! to top this shit off, my "new" car is fucked up....

well, trying to make this short (for now)... we went to my husby's nephews 7th birthday party... i will get into further details later, but for now, it's safe to point out some brief observations I will elaborate on later:

1. ghetto party
2. annoying "sister-in-law"
3. wild screamin' kids
4. good food

WOW, i really do have my sexual appetite again... well, sorta'. We used to go at it at least 3 times a day - minimum. During pregnancy and after having the lil' rascal, my husby and i cut back to, oh, average... 2-3 times (a month!) Sometimes even less than that... well, i truly feel like i'm preggie again. it has to be that because i get aroused like before - ha ha - just by being breathed upon, thought about, looked at... whatever! although if i am preggie, i wouldn't really know why i feel this way now because my 1st pregnancy I didn't want to be touched, looked at, or even talked to - and i mean at all for the full first trimester (3 months ppl), and then minimally during the remainder of it. wierd huh?

is there a full moon or what? lol... anyways, who cares, i'm happy to be back (almost).

well, still busy as usual. it makes you wonder how i can find time to blog and not exercise? cuz i'm a bum, i know... anyway, just been updating the painting website...

Now my diaper wreath biz contacts is up to four. Today's been a slow day on their part, but then again, the past couple of days I've been the slowest to reply. Would it have anything to do with this mellow, almost-gloomy weather?

The baby is sleeping right now... he's gone backwards ever since he got sick... all the progress I made in getting him to fall asleep on his own is gone. At least he falls back to sleep quicker than before, so even if I have to wake up in the middle of the night to go to him, he's out quickly - thank God!

Well, enough play! Back to work...

p.s. my brother's ex had the nerve to contact him to ask him to tell his best friend that she's having his baby girl. Her reasoning was that she doesn't talk to him anymore.  It makes me wonder why she would ask her ex boyfriend to do this when she has my brother's best friend's brother as a contact on her myspace page - PLUS, she can tell him directly because he also has a myspace page. Meanwhile, my brother doesn't talk to his "best friend" anymore and the only way to let him know is to tell his other brother to tell him. Besides, my bro's best friend is now living in another city with his girlfriend! They both have pictures of wedding rings they picked out on their respective myspace pages... WTF?! (let me point out again that she's on myspace as well, and i still talk to that ho... better to keep ur friends close and ur enemies closer i say). Hopefully, you understood all of that...

oh what have i gotten myself into? the baby has been sick the past couple of days - today he's finally felt better. he was all smiles and giggles!

so this diaper wreath thing is getting off the ground fast - almost too fast. I already have 3 interested biz site-owners interested in stocking my product online at their websites! who knew? 2 are local, one is in California... there's a mix of talk which includes some boutique's in CA - wow! I've contacted another site-owner to see if I can get her product wholesale. Who knows, maybe she'll want in on my diapie wreaths too! ha ha ha... now that i definitely know there's a market out there, it's time to work hard. (leave it to me to create more work for myself - ha ha). oh well, who can say no to the big payoff of money i'm going to get down the road? i'm thinking that after my website is up and running, i'll send some free samples to different baby magazines. gee, can you see where i'm goin' with that idea? hee hee hee... persistance always pays off!

yep, i used to think my life was drama-free.... let's take a look at my list of previous family events, gatherings, and going-on's:

1. New Year's 2006 - 8pm.: I fight with my aunt (mom's sister) because she's an egotistical, pompous, middle-class "aristrocrat" who throws on aires of being rich and classy. We'll ignore the fact that she also swears, will throw you out of the house (even if it's not hers), and calls my favorite cousin, her daughter, a slut & a bitch just because the dress she wore at my wedding was backless). The fight was due to the fact that she insulted my son, saying he would grow up to be (& I quote) "a retarded momma's boy" because he was co-sleeping with us at the time and that was "incorrect" and she knows it all (again, this is ignoring the fact that she was a stay-at-home mom and still hired a full-time nanny to take care of her daughter for her - & not even in her house). I told her to "get a man" and that even though she was older than I, that still didn't give her the righ to insult me or my son. I also told her that as an "older adult", she should be setting an example. (i told her the latter because I left the room to avoid any more fighting and I could still hear her all the way down the hall to the bathroom saying stupid provoking comments). I was 23 years old then and she told my mom to "slap me" because I was out of line - ha ha ha.... (just to point out that the family agreed with me and was laughing for days on end at all the things I "had the courage" to mouth off to her). I mean, I had to leave the house, MY house, just to avoid problems because she wouldn't shut up.
2. Thanskgiving 2005 - 2 days after the 'big meal'. My brother's girlfriend leaves him. It turns out she's pregnant and it's probably my brother's best friend's baby. No additional comments here - that's enough drama on its own...
3. My husband and I were seperated for 3 months in our first year of marriage because he couldn't stop talking with other women and I would get pissed off and fight with him. He then decided to leave me because I fought with him a lot - lmao... can you believe this shit? Anyways, we managed to resolve some issues and got back together. Well, this stupid bitch he met when we were seperated is a psychotic russian slut who still keeps calling him, trying to start shit. Keep in mind that the guys I was hanging out with curteously left me alone when I told them that I was getting back with my husband and to please respect that decision. (I think that shows you what type of people I was hanging out with compared to the type of people my husband was hanging out with during that time). So anyways, it turns out that this girl works as an escort on the side, even though she has a boyfriend... and she calls my husband every now and then, but only when her bf is out of town... lmao... my husband keeps telling her not to call and she still does. The suckiest part is that we can't change the number because my smart husband decided to give her his business cell phone number, which obviously, can't be changed because it will confuse older clients and people with our old biz card. I, on the other hand, still think she's a slut and relish in the fact that every time she calls I can  point this out to her. *sighs*... it's such a beautiful thing to hear her squirm with fury... beautiful, beautiful thing... she's so retarded that even though my husband makes fun of her,  she still keeps calling. Am I worried about my husband leaving me? Nope... even if he does I get half of the biz profits and child support... again, another beautiful, beautiful thing. I tell him this too, that "if you ever leave me, I'm taking the cars, half the biz income, child support, and anything else I can get in there." *SMILE*... at least I'm truthful

Well, that's enough drama for now... I'm sure we'll create some more in the not too distant future. I mean, yesterday alone my husband had to leave work early so he could go search for his nephew since his dad was "escaped" from his sister's house (where he's living now if u read past blogs) and no one knew if he had remembered to pickup his own child... *sighs* ... not one boring moment in the mix....

yea, so still talking about my husband's family... i find a wierd twisted pleasure out of the whole situation... mainly because we've helped my husby's bro's & sis (monetarily, food-wise, pickin' up & droppin' off... buying their kids clothes, giving them gas money, money for other bs...) and they've pretty much brought all of this onto themselves. In fact, one of my husby's bro's still owes us money. And I say, hey, if you can't pay it back that's one thing, but at least make it look like you're trying. That way, we would have given him that money back, forgiven the debt, and the next time he'd ask to borrow we'd know he was good for it. My husband bought his van some brakes (w/o telling me)... to make this story short, i called the cops - he kept the brakes, and he promised he'd pay that amount plus what was already accumulated to us by friday. I guess it's my misunderstanding cuz he never really did say what year... and then that one time with his wife... she's an idiot. I would play with her newborn baby girl and hold her and love on her (since her mom didn't), and she asked me not to pick her up again because my perfume rubbed off on her and she only bathed her once a week. *jaw drops* HELLO!... wow... I can write a fkn book on their twisted family... right now, my husby's sis has lived in every apartment complex in the central fl area... let me stop there - 4 now... if it were up to me, my husband would have no contact w/ them whatsoever... they call him when they need money, manual labor help, or food, a "favor", whatever... and even though i love his mom, her comment to him once: "you need to help ur brother/sister because they're ur bro/sis"... um - no. Why would I in my right mind give his brother $200 for drugs (even tho he says it's for food and rent and shit)... when I have an 8month old son who needs to be taken care of? UGH! He needs to get his unemployed ass a job... and his fkn lazy wife too... can you believe that once we went to visit them (b4 they got evicted 4 not paying the rent)... and I could of sworn she was going to ask me for some milk for the kids, I swear that's what I expected. But no, she asked for fkn coca cola - for herself!... I bought that stupid B some coke... enjoy!

so anyways, i managed to get in a couple of extra hours of sleep this morning, mainly because my little man "allowed" me this time while he also slept. I find myself kind of in a wierd, unexplainable mood today. One of my cousins contacted me yesterday - I haven't talked to her in over 6 years I think - who knows... and we used to live down the street almost. Whatever.

Moving on to my husband's family. I'm counting my blessings because all my husband's siblings do drugs or some stupid shit. Let's break it down: a half sister of his died of aids, his other sister has 3 kids from two different guys and is always out and about (i guess she wants number 4), his 2 brothers both do drugs (excessively), his father treated their mother like shit so much that she has problems w/ her nerves (putting her in the crazy asylum at one point, just cuz he could)... AND, they're all living in the same house - ha ha.. that's 1 duplex w/ 2 bedrooms/1 bath, 5 adults, 6 kids, 1 dog, and a whole lot of mess. I have no comments about his mom because she's an angel sent from Heaven... besides my husband, she's the only one you can take out of the whole lot. Truthfully, his family serves us as entertainment... "what, they kicked her out again?" "he's cheating w/ who?" ... ha ha ha....